Drain Tube

No this is not like UTube! I have been hoping that at today's doctors appointment, my drain was draining slow enough that i could be removed today. And... I just got a call from my very nice doctor, Dr. Chung and we went over the numbers of cc units we were draining daily and she said my drain can come out.. I am soo excited to have this thing gone. Even I though I am terrified it will hurt taking it out. Its been in there for 12 days and I have a fear it has started to attach itself to me. ouch. It hangs off my left side and is in the way, I have to have it pinned to the side of my shirt to keep it close. Its a clear ball/drain so if my shirt isn't long enough, anyone can see it.. its quite disgusting! Without my drain, I think I can go to meeting on Tuesday. I am excited for that. Listening in just isn't the same. Jessica came over yesterday and had a nice idea: we should decorate my drain/ball thing, put some jewels on it, cover it with sparkles and glitter, scrapbook it. It was a cute idea. And I would have if I had to have it much longer! I slept good last night, but woke up at about 6am in some pain. I didn't wake up all night to take any meds in the night. Even though I have cut myself off slowly from most of the meds, I still prefer to set an alarm, wake up in the middle of the night and take some. it keeps the pain under control a little bit more. Not that there is a lot of pain, but when it does come, it shoots like sharp pains. Today I am also waiting for calls from St. Johns. I had an appt this past Friday at the Interstate Kaiser for the bone scan. It was long drive, in the middle of day with coming home time at rush hour. What they do is give a shot of dye in the hand, send you away for three hours than you go back and they put you in some machine to see where the dye went. I didn't feel like driving all that way when I knew they could do it in Longview or even Vancouver. I asked if it could be done here in Longview and they said no. So I made the appt. than Richard and I talked about, and I decided to be the patient, put my foot down, take control and I called them back and told them I needed it done in Longview. and.. after some time, they finally told me they could refer it out, which I knew they could. So now am waiting for them to call me and if they don't call me be this afternoon, I am suppose to call the hospital and check on it myself. The appointment girl at Kaiser wasn't happy with me. But its my health, my appointment, my drive to Portland, my finding someone to take me. And I am looking out for me.Putting if off a few days isn't going to hurt me, as I am still healing from the surgery. Just because Kaiser didn't want to refer it out, they told me it had to be done in Portland at a Kaiser facility. So frustrating. So I am watching the phone today.. waiting for it to ring. Last night I looked in a Portland phone book for some wig stores. Almost started crying when I said to Richard, " I cant believe I am reading a phone book , looking for a wig store to buy myself a wig because I have cancer". But I didn't cry. I wanted to . I don't want to do ANY of this but I don't have a choice. We joked that I could take a day, a girls day with my mom, Kris and Brenda to go wig shopping.. not quite the girls shopping day that sounds very fun. But as I start to feel better from surgery and without this drain, I am going to have to seriously look into a wig. Even though the chemo treatments wont start for a few weeks, I want to be prepared. if there is such a thing. And I don't have any clue. I do have a couple of baseball style hats I could use... OK, maybe not such a great idea. I am just happy that I am getting to keep this doctors appointment today!