Healing

I am healing pretty well. No more band aids! yippee. I don't think my skin could have taken another day of them! Taking them off two times a day to change them was hurting so bad. It didn't matter if it was wet after a shower or I ripped it off, or tried slowly, it hurt and wanted to yell each time. As for the pain med.... I thought I was done with them yesterday-- but it turned out that I was thinking I was feeling better that I really was. But even in still taking them, I have cut them waaay back. Take one in the morning, one at night and maybe if needed one in the middle of the day, depending on the day. Compared with 2 every 4 hours that I was taking, slowly they are going away. I am not a big fan of taking any meds. Still have a hard time in my mind telling myself that I have cancer. And sometimes still freak out a little inside myself and have a good cry. OK, I have to admit, that its almost every day that happens. Yesterday I called a couple of wig stores in Portland to see if they had wigs I had to order, or if I could purchase it and take it home. Also went online to a company called TLC that is used by the American Cancer Society and ordered some samples of wig hair colors to see if they will match mine when the time comes if I need a wig. I have it my head that I will need a wig no matter what kind of chemo they give me. How can a stage three cancer patient with chemo as treatment not need a wig? I know for some it does happen, but I think most people do lose their hair. Today I asked Richard "what will I do when I lose my eyebrows?.. I have never needed an eyebrow pencil, I have them waxed to keep them in control. Without them, how will I know where to draw them in at? Do I need to remember where they were now, or will I be able to feel the place they were to be able to pencil them on?" Like my husband who I adore, would have any real idea or input on that subject! But I had to ask someone. So many questions that seem silly and not important-- but to me they are. They are things I never thought of before and never would have imagined I would need to think of. Went to my first meeting today since surgery. It was SO nice to see all the friends at the Kingdom Hall. It was encouraging to be back. I really needed it.