More Hair Loss

As each day does by I am losing more hair. This morning it was coming out in handfuls. When I got done drying my hair, on the floor there was a ring of hair around where I was standing.. not to mention what I lost in washing it and combing through it before drying it. No really thin or bald spots showing yet, so no one would really know if I didn't tell them. Yesterday I kept it in a ponytail, and most likely will today too. Can't handle seeing on my shoulders or arm and knowing that the back of shirt would be covered with it. My head still tingles/hurts, I wonder if it will even after the hair is gone.... Just sitting here, its falling out and the only thing moving on me are my fingers on the keyboard! Than there is the temptation to pull out as much as I can (not sure why)... maybe to get it over with, or maybe in my mind I think it might stop coming out the more I pull at it. I wont try to pull it out, as I want to keep it as long as I can. Emotional... very much so. Other than crying and looking in the mirror for a bald or super thin spot, and bawling about it some more there is absolutely no way to have prepared myself for this.